I really do spend too much time on the computer.

I must say i'm happy. Being able to be so free. Enjoying a meal, getting ready for bed, putting on soothing music, with no knots of stress in my stomach. Working on improving my habits and behaviors. A future full of hope. No captivity to be accounted for. Just simple living in the moment. Utterly grateful I"m though trying to control and predict. Perfect, even in my imperfections.

Embrace this

I've learned i'm very uncomfortable with being so unsure of everything. Nervous to engage fully in life. I've been programmed for struggle, fear, and insecurity. I want like hell to break it. Because i've seen the beauty that shows itself when I do. It's beyond words. It makes so much sense, while making none at the same time. I need to get a better grip on the truth that I am new everyday. This will help me become who I know I must.

Always,
Matthew