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Right here, right now

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America

The American Way. The people working hours a day into nothing that important. Unsatisfied customers and shutting off your cell phone service. Not being able to afford a birthday present for your son. Nachos while watching the baseball world series. Overeating, and fat dogs that make knarly noises. No one that can actually help you because they really care. Large trucks running on foreign oil and corporate greed. No one really wants to help anybody anymore. Here I am trying to shed all of this. We are falling, in a very real way. The little things make the decay apparent. Yet everyone seems so obvious, so devoted to the lie that's been built up all around them, with no way to every see beyond it. It's a problem.

Tangled

Best movie ever. Story of my life.

Holy shit.

Great

Something changed today. It has something to do with the weather. There was a signal last night with the sky, something so purple/orange was so beautiful. Today, a rainy day ending with an air so thick and clear, and a warm feeling sort of surrounding everything. Flashes of the holidays are coming this way. There is no longer a need to prove anything to anyone, simply a time to be safe, sit back, and enjoy. A sort of feeling of appreciation and bliss. I don't know if this is just me or everyone around me is feeling the exact same thing- I can't ever really know. But I love the heck out of all of this.

I forgot to mention Steve Jobs died today. He lived a beautiful and courageous life. He has been a great inspiration to me, and I have marvels my entire life at this accomplishments. His death is really full of life.

10/1/11

Spending time alone, I am realizing how dramatically my circumstances have changed, and how grateful I am for those changes, but my past never escapes me. I feel like i'm in a dream- nothing really makes too much sense, there are evident problems I don't fully understand, and there are forces controlling my behavior that I cannot see. I've see the types of people I admire. Creative, real, courageous, daring, simple, perserverant, educated, engaged, concerned- which I assume means that is the type of person I want to become- but nothing is really propelling me to become that person. It really just doesn't make sense. It's all a blur, but shimmers of light keep me at it. Let go.