Our Bodies Going Numb

As I painstakingly sit in the Harold B Library in Provo, Utah researching the labor market of the United States- something odd is pulling at my attention. A kid in the corner has been listening to Ke$ha's "We R Who We R" on repeat for over an hour. I used to like the song, but now I find no joy in it. I think it is pretty funny that we live lives with polar objectives. Seeking to discover knowledge, we immerse ourselves in very surface level media to balance out the pain of learning. It is so much easier to escape. To live a life of ignorance. Emotions that shock the brain could be felt only occasionally- not constantly and so pervasly invading my one's every thought. My motivation at this point is to simply finish. With barely any regard for quality, but rather for the end. I am walking into battle, and desire only for it to be over. One would hope that a greater perspective and level of control could be of guidance. Perhaps, but for me, it is nowhere to be found.